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Hmm, random title.
Right to the point: I lost my drive in art. I had soo much of it years ago, but I am soo tired nowadays that I can't get nothing done. Maybe it is the realization of my total lack of talent and the feeling that my skills reached it's peak at a really low point. The feeling that I should have started to train at a younger age and it is too late for me now.
Earlier this year (when was it, a little after Easter?) I tried to change perspectives and tried to fuel my drive with my jealousy and hate to get something done. It worked for a time, I feeled really better for some months, but that is over. I think that hate burn too fast.
Right to the point: I lost my drive in art. I had soo much of it years ago, but I am soo tired nowadays that I can't get nothing done. Maybe it is the realization of my total lack of talent and the feeling that my skills reached it's peak at a really low point. The feeling that I should have started to train at a younger age and it is too late for me now.
Earlier this year (when was it, a little after Easter?) I tried to change perspectives and tried to fuel my drive with my jealousy and hate to get something done. It worked for a time, I feeled really better for some months, but that is over. I think that hate burn too fast.
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Devious Journal Entry
My last throughts for this year and the last ones for a little while.
Been feeling unexpected depressed today, my hopes and dreams never reached a pointo soo low. It not like I lost something, like I talked in the last journal, now I know that. I just got the realization this year that trying, for my case at least, is useless. Most of the time now, thinking about art makes me feel empty. It sounds too dramatic, and I will regret typing that, but it is the only way I can describe it.
I just wished I could accept my failure and move on, but I can't do it. Being a failure in the only thing I wished to do in my life is really hard. But, oh well
Devious Journal Entry
Just a bunch of random depressive throughts.
Had a good week some time back, got some cool pen skecths, but that is over now. Feeling like shit again. Still can't find that old joy about drawing again knowing that I suck soo much.
Maybe I can't improve because I am a terrible person.
I have been dying inside of envy about a certain person on this site lately. Someone that just started doing muscle stuff some months ago is already soo much better than I could ever be.
This person is a great artist, and should rightfully be praised by that.
I am just a stupid autodestructive neurotic for feeling like that.
This year will complete ten y
Devious Journal Entry
Been trying to write this for some time now, a bit of confession and rant. Depressed and tired as always, please ignore it. Just wanted to take it out of my chest. Writing here helps to think.
I am a very envious person. Never asked for anything in life, don't have any dreams for the future, just wanted to be able to draw. Toke me a long time to figure that I don't have the knack (or the discipline) for it. Just have some skill that I learned from all those years, but that don't seem to be enough. I have been stuck for a long time now. Just feel envious of all the people who can do it. It is a very stupid thing to feel. People that are aroun
Ten years
Oh man, I feel tired. Really tired now, and not better than the last journal. Wished to have something new to show but I have nothing. Just going to rant today about my failures because it helps me to feel better.
This account completed nine years in October 20th, soo it seens to be ten years since I started to study this art business. Man, that's a long time. I had hope and energy back there, not soo much now. I still suck at the only thing I really wanted to do and can't see that changing in the near future.
I know what you have to do, train everyday and all that stuff, but I am really tired of everything now. I reached that point after a
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I am not really good with words but i'll try...
All i can do is give you some advice that i got from professional artists (Concept artist, cartoonist, illustrators etc.) since i think i am not really in the position to give you art related advice.
First of all, Talent is overrated, yes it helps but it is not needed to become a decent artist.
You're never too old to become an artist - drawing isn't a physical activity that requires a certain age.
Keep on drawing even if you think you don't make any progress, you'll become better.
Try to leave your comfort zone.
Learn realistic proportions and anatomy first - you can't break and bend the rules without knowing them first.
It also helps studying the human skeleton and skull.
Don't hesitate to use reference when doing actual work.
I recommend using www.pureref.com/index.php - the program is free to use.
When practicing, do it in a private sketchbook or in a separate file, that is only meant for your eyes only - this will help you to break out of your comfort zone more easily.
Don't hesitate to copy or even trace other artists when practicing - this helps you getting a better feeling for things. (just don't upload them ofcourse...)
Also don't try to force things, find a pace you're emotionally comfortable with. Never use negative feelings as a driving force.
Here are some Youtube channels that are worth checking out, their videos helped me and hopefully they'll help you.
www.youtube.com/user/Sycra - is great for artist related life-tips and art-tips in general
www.youtube.com/user/ProkoTV - great teacher for technical stuff
www.youtube.com/user/DrawWithJ… - good animator and gives good life and art tips
www.youtube.com/user/bluefley0… - blizzard concept artist (or was it illustrator?)
again, this advice is not coming from me, but from professional artist who make a living of their art.
I hope this helps !
All i can do is give you some advice that i got from professional artists (Concept artist, cartoonist, illustrators etc.) since i think i am not really in the position to give you art related advice.
First of all, Talent is overrated, yes it helps but it is not needed to become a decent artist.
You're never too old to become an artist - drawing isn't a physical activity that requires a certain age.
Keep on drawing even if you think you don't make any progress, you'll become better.
Try to leave your comfort zone.
Learn realistic proportions and anatomy first - you can't break and bend the rules without knowing them first.
It also helps studying the human skeleton and skull.
Don't hesitate to use reference when doing actual work.
I recommend using www.pureref.com/index.php - the program is free to use.
When practicing, do it in a private sketchbook or in a separate file, that is only meant for your eyes only - this will help you to break out of your comfort zone more easily.
Don't hesitate to copy or even trace other artists when practicing - this helps you getting a better feeling for things. (just don't upload them ofcourse...)
Also don't try to force things, find a pace you're emotionally comfortable with. Never use negative feelings as a driving force.
Here are some Youtube channels that are worth checking out, their videos helped me and hopefully they'll help you.
www.youtube.com/user/Sycra - is great for artist related life-tips and art-tips in general
www.youtube.com/user/ProkoTV - great teacher for technical stuff
www.youtube.com/user/DrawWithJ… - good animator and gives good life and art tips
www.youtube.com/user/bluefley0… - blizzard concept artist (or was it illustrator?)
again, this advice is not coming from me, but from professional artist who make a living of their art.
I hope this helps !