Oh man, I feel tired. Really tired now, and not better than the last journal. Wished to have something new to show but I have nothing. Just going to rant today about my failures because it helps me to feel better.
This account completed nine years in October 20th, soo it seens to be ten years since I started to study this art business. Man, that's a long time. I had hope and energy back there, not soo much now. I still suck at the only thing I really wanted to do and can't see that changing in the near future.
I know what you have to do, train everyday and all that stuff, but I am really tired of everything now. I reached that point after all these years and all that work to notice that I don't have any talent for this stuff.